To Be … Or Not To Be …
As I try to regain a bit of momentum in blogging, I have to admit that I’m not the same person who hesitantly gravitated from journalizing to blogging back in 2005. There’s been way too much water under the bridge, and much of it has been pretty intense. I’ve written about some of those changes in my private blog, but included very little of it in my public blog. Although it’s relatively easy to write about awful things which happened more than 3 decades ago, it’s quite another to write about whatever “awful things” might be happening now. There’s always a certain desire to show our best side – the smiling side, the side that is able to overcome obstacles, the side that has been through some bad experiences, survived them, and learned enough from them to want to pass on the knowledge. But that’s not the full picture … reality seldom presents itself in such an uncomplicated package.
Up until now, I’ve maintained several personal blogs. This one, which is my public blog, Emanon’s Journey, which is a bit more of a private blog, The Unwilling Agnostic, an even more private blog, and one other one, which is anonymous, and floating around loose in the blogosphere; that one is very, very private. A couple of my friends have accidentally run into it in the past, much to my deep humiliation.
As different as each of those blogs are, they’re all part of the same story – individual pieces of a single puzzle. I think it’s time for all of the threads to be gathered together, and for all of the personae to be integrated.
At this time, I’m going through some really amazing changes, both inside – and out. There are certain things that I’ve always tried to keep hidden, which I’m now going to uncover for the sake of being able to tell my story. I can fill in the details of the past, but the story itself is ongoing, multifaceted, complex, and very unusual – and I have no idea where it’s going to end. I will try, as best as I can, to set the scene with as much background as seems necessary, and then I’ll just share it with you as it unfolds …
… to what end? Only the passage of time will tell …
Out of the Long Night:
- To Be … Or Not To Be …
- Through the Veil Darkly








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